Well, You see I have thought I had this book around and not burned in the house fire along with other books. I knew also that my film camera was still around and not burned in the house fire. I had found it at a store for less than 50$, and I rarely used it. I was led to believe that the book has been gone. I lost trust in my memory due to ECT and others having no good memory. My memory is fine even thought it is not a trust worthy for evidence in a court hearing. But for my math and definitions it works great. I also knew it was working when i insisted it was not burned. The camera had been at michele’s house all along. Not a biggy but i can trust my memory again. I know I did some bad horrible things but according to the Chronological Protection Conjecture; I can not change the past and only think of the good things and learn from it. You see people with bipolar tend to dwell on the past and label them horrible and only those. There are good things in my past that I have nice memory of. Michele driving in cold weather to mess up my final exams in quantum mechanics. The boy talking for hours about dinosaurs. My deceased sister asking, “What are you doing?” I say, “I am NOT doing anything.” I remember my first computer was a LC475 macintosh and it was great. I had installed Maple on it and had fun. 
Good news for next week! I am super-very-excited.
Filed under: alcoholism, Bipolar, insomnia, Memory loss, Novel, Photography 
